Thoughts on being a Mom.

Today I am feeling incredible humbled and blessed. It seems lately that infertility is all around me. From complete strangers, to friends, to old classmates, ect. I happened to stumble upon two blogs today of some acquanitances of mine. Both are suffering from infertility issues, both have tried IVF, both have been unsuccessful. I found myself crying on the couch, holding my own baby and wishing desperately to be able to ease the pain that these women must be feeling.
I myself did not struggle at all to get pregnant. We decided to try and one cycle later our journey into parenthood had began. I do remember though, before we had both come to the conclusion that it was time to start our family, how it felt to want something and to feel a type of hole in my heart or something missing from my life. In just the two weeks I had to wait to get a positive pregnancy test felt like an eternity.
I cannot begin to comprehend the pain and struggles that some couples are facing. My heart truely goes out to them. I wish I had the words to comfort them or to ease their pain. I wish I had money to donate to couples to continue on in the hope of creating a family. I wish I was a scientific genius that could solve this problem. I wish for every woman who desires to have a child to be able to. I wish for them to not be angry with their bodies. I wish them the comfort that the Gospel can bring.
Today I feel so blessed to be able to call myself "Mom." It's all I ever wanted. I'm even more grateful and blessed to be able to stay at home with this little boy. I want to be the best mom that I can be, because I have been blessed enough to be one. I hope to not take one day for granted. No matter how tired or stressed I am, no matter how many days it's been since I had a good shower, no matter if my floors aren't clean or the dishes aren't done. I promise to not take this blessing for granted. For those of you still trying to concieve, my prayers are with you daily.